Thursday, April 27, 2006
mind games
i hate playing mind games
it sux
tho it kinda spice up ur life
it keeps u wonder
linah drove her beettle at
2:39 AM
Monday, April 24, 2006
i realised i miss my sis so much. we ate satay at the dining table and i juz stared at her face. she look different tho still the same. uhmmm. meaning i've nvr seen enuf of her lately. i miss her.
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11:53 PM
Sunday, April 23, 2006
hi blog. how r u? its sunday. whole family is at home. except for ali she's going out soon. hurhurhur.
tuition wid bazli yesterday was emotional. he broke down and pour his thoughts and feelings and stories. i almost cried. tears in my eyes. a ten yr old kid. pressured. i pity him. feel sad for him. world shits. the reality. he said he wanna leave the young world and grow up. that bad. my jaws dropped down man. he broke down twice. nevertheless, im glad he pour his feelings and thoughts to me. cause after that, i felt that there is the bond there. he's my younger cousin and i guess i should take the initiative to help him out. its not me being so erm to show my caring-ness, my thought-ness and stuffs. i dun show it. he got me near there. and i thank-ed him for it.
aft tuition met yanto as planned. coolness. was damn slumber and comfy. doink. aku tak perlu jaim. tak perlu basa-basi. i can even gave him my cuek look which my sis says "stop that look. its annoying." tts wat i call a nice comfy meeting. huhuahuahuaua. watched hostel. blardy shit kinda movie man. ive had enough with the hills hev eyes and watching hostel make it worse. and its uhmmm r21. madness madness. and yes i saw tits but not uhmm dicks. heh. the gruesome part is still on my mind. the part when the dude tried to get up and runaway when actually his ankle and erm leg split into two. wid blood oozing out. erghhh. sakit siollllll. ohya going out with yanto, there were farnie incidents here and there. doink.
am supposed to watch garasi and gie but nazzie cant make it so whole plan cancelled. we planned to eat outside later instead. uhmmm banquet amk or fork n spoon tpy? oke naz juz msg-ed. its cancelled again. her parents are bringing them to changi. still can ask me kalau nak ikut masuk boot. citot kau nazzie. hurhurhur.
alamak aku lapar. its 4.21. i tink i go eat first lah.
linah drove her beettle at
1:42 PM
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
hey lowwwwww :))))
hey bloggie how have u been? uhmmm heee oke.
i'd like to thank my frens close family and relatives and cousins for the birthday wishes.
biz liza treat me at the ol A&A kedaikopi...its was nice makan session thks bik...
uhmmm thks to kak aie abg madi paman bad bik liza cik ros cik la bazli balqis daniel and especially my mom for the makan session at lestari. it'll be one of those events in my life that i'll remember...for my twentieth birdae...
thks to nazzie faton eda fizah izuana farhan ain sham kak rita for the sms birdae wishes and to nadia my younger cousin for the frenster birthdae msg.:)
ohya Hepy Birthday to teddy too! if ure reading this :) i wished him on msn yesterday. we share the same birthdate. lol...doink.
thks to my sis for the narnia selimut and sandal.
being twenty. erm im juz scared abt it. being twenty means u got to act like one. can i? i hope so. am trying to be. and i thanked god for the life he has given me. the family, close frens, comfort, the being me. im learning to appreciate life. im trying to. huuuuuuu. heeeeeee. oooo. ga-ga.
emo talking - linah - doink doink. lol.
nazzie and me has been like talking business lately. i wonder how it'll be or isit juz empty talk? uhmmm. on the other hand, i'm so so not into the mood of tutoring. its kinda boring for now. someone needs to slap me. grrr. i hate myself for this. blergh.
ohya ohya on sat i met yanto. wat a first impression he gave. late for one hour. lucky me we're supposed to meet at mcd. so i took my time eating for breakfast before i head for tution later on. nice guy. gd company. irritating tho.
sat bayu is performing at batam. ohya. at the anugerah show, bayu was awesome. when its bayu's turn to perform, it was like bayu mini concert. im like smiling all the way seeing them. new image man. uhmmm. azmi's and zul's hair was like straigtened. i like stoink's hair. it looks cool on him. and he got the whole stage to himself when its the acoustic session. wow. rafie's clothes and hair was cool. eh dejavu. its like i typed these before in my dream. anyways, i wish bayu all the best. awesome. but one thing, i only like to hear them live. if bayu's mp3 is playing on my winamp, i will like stop it. erk. dun like. weird. even on cd.
uhmmmm wat else....i need to publish my blog soon. oke i dunno wat else to pour. till then bloggie. =)
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9:25 PM
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
heluuu blog :)
life has been quite monotone during the hols...weekday nites spent my time tutoring...guess wat? yesterday was like one of the tuition nite tt i would remember laughing my ass out...my tutee, hafizh. he got to write his journal: I Heard a Sound.
Storyline after we've discussed what he wanna write: Heard a big bang under the voideck. Hafizh being a hero was not afraid and decided to call the police. 15mins later (hafizh insisted on 15 mins later when his sis said, "1 min ah"), the policemen arrive. They were shocked to see a huge red spaceship. 10 aliens came out from the spaceship. They waved their hands simultaneously to the policemen after which all of them said, "H-E-L-L-O". This is the farnie part: After they waved and said HELLO, all of the 10 aliens did a mass dance in front of the policemen. The policemen were shocked and fainted. The End. hehehehehhehehe doink doink.
i cant help giggling and fizah asked me why am i laughing (she asked using my tone when i asked her y she's laughing). another doink.
ohya, i failed my btt test. its rather stoOopId to fail. blergh. i actually studied like a few days before the test whereas filza studied like one month before the test. tts the third doink. i never dream of taking a license and when kak aie asked me along to accompany her, i guess i might juz take. it will be helpful in the future but i nvr think of that. thats the fourth doink.
i woke up this morning as early as 6.45. wow. heh. log on to frenster and yati added me. she's my chilhood, primary sch close fren. her name is nur hayati. our mothers are frens and we used to be neighbours. it was kinda uhmm a lil emo-ing seeing her pics coz seeing her reminds me of the 3 of us at teck ghee primary sch. hah. yati, roselyanti, whom i called ros and myself. the farnie thing is tt, during recess time, i didnt have recess or play with my own classmate but with them. i still remember that i was in 1b and they were in 1c. during p1 and p2 they were like my closest n bestest frens. i remember going back home from madrasah with yati taking bus cik poniah..and going to sch in the afternoon with her. we go tru the shortcut at deyi sec. theres one time her uncle brought us to sch and he took a picture of us. yati left for another sch when she moved house after which ros left. im not sure exactly when but i clearly remember ros left when we're in p4. i guess. if not it would be p3. by then ros n me were very close. i went to her house juz right behind tgps before we start our math remedial every wednesday. i still remember her being so excited about the trip to orlando with her mak angkat. yati is the youngest in her family and there were kak long and kak ngah. i used to play at her house. what i like about her bedroom was that she had a double decker bed which i dont. we played row row row ur boat on the second bunk. hehe. uhmmm ros is the middle one among her sisters. roseldalisa, roselyanti and roselyani. cool names aye. and when its p5, ros left tgps. and the 3 of us were in different sch already. we still keep in touch but not so close anymore. we meet during hari raya, ros often called my house. i didnt called her often coz everytime i called her pager or hp, she changed her number. ros wished me hepy birthday without fail too. her's was 5th april. hepy belated birthday ros. now, everyting seems to drift apart and im cool with tt tho i wished we could still be like before when we're 7 or 8. everyone has got their own path now. it happens. mebbe after this i shld contact yati. i still got her no. but im not sure if she got a new no. uhmmm seeing the 3 of us, we turned out real different, and of coz me being the square one. -_-. when we're together, ros was the daring one, yati was the manja/adorable one and me being the uhmmm follow the rules one. and i miss those days when im typing this. and now its like 9.03 in the morning. i miss them. p5 alone at tgps without them was different. and i got great frens back then in p5. primary sch days were the faboulous one.
ohya ohya guess wattttttt????? i got myself a new handphone!!!! like finally *grins* hehehe....*thinking of gel and nazzie* khekheke. erk so hepy. its samsung x700. its my second hp mind u so pardon me if im being like a jakun. 5 yrs attached to nokia 3310 was a bliss...hehehehe...its true oke. im gonna keep 3310 in a safe place and start a new life with samsung x700. muahahahaha. now i noe y ppl are self-obsessed when taking pic of themselves using hp. khekhe...:$ ohya its not prepaid anymore. im using m1 student plan. so yeah. coolness of technolgy. tts samsung x700. heh.
again last sun we went to nenek's house. it wasnt planned but there was a mini-gathering. obek saini and obek siti and obek asnah and kak ros with abg marzuki with elsa and paman rus'at. of nenek was there too. spent time together. from nenek's room to hall. to and fro. these are little comforts tt i enjoy - time wid close ones. we didnt go to nenek's house very often like we used to when we were small. i hate myself for tt. ergh. nenek was teasing me about my hair. its so rare of her. i like it when she used to came to our house and sleepover. now its different. nenek spent most of her time on bed. i ever sound my mother to bring her over during this term hols and lemme get the feel to like look after her. my mother said im mad and i tink i am lah. coz i'm me, i'm lazy, i'm square and the list goes on. blablabla. nenek was advising us sister to get a gd husband. i rem the other time i visit her. she said when with guys, u should know ur manners and tt kinda stuffs. she said, we've got to be uhmmmm, she said like wat my mother said...its better for a guy to love the gal than the other way round kinda thing. we watched teevee in nenek's room and spent the time together there. ive only got one nenek in my life. and there was a uhmmm somehow a special connection wid me n nenek. its not about being very close coz she didnt stay with us. but it's about our history. me. nenek. mak n bapak. she might have stayed together with us till now but fate decide tt it wouldnt turn out tt way. i always wonder why but was never sad of it. coz being a kid, i've got the taste of having a nenek and is still. we sisters used to cabut her uban, sikat her rambut and after she bathe we would sit down and see her dandan herself with the kerongsang and kebaya and kain. her bedak and her sikat. her purse. tt knife in her bag. her tongkat. her wedge erm kasut. everything. my sis was the one whom she love when it comes to urut. nenek never got into hosp until lately and seeing her for the first time at hosp was a saddening feeling. seeing her and my father they are totally different. i thank god for keeping her in a gd condition. at the age of 80 or 90+ i dunno exactly how old is she, she can still remember us and chit chat with us. thks to obek nekmah who looks after her tho sometime i find her a lil harsh wid nenek. erk.
last sat had tuition as per normal wid bazli...and...balqis...she's like so naughty and cute at the same time. im not good with kids tho i noe with me sometimes she wants to manja-manja. heh. im bad at it la. the fifth doink. we had meknonel and i taught her dipping her fries into curry sauce. she did it. hah. she drank my lemon tea till finish with tt small body of a 1 and a half yr old toddler.
uhmmm wait 18th april is coming. kinda stressful coz im twenty already. huackkks. no more teens. but twenty. with a big 2 infront. i thank god for letting me living this far in such a comfort condition. but i hate that big 2 in front because it doesnt reflect my brain, my attitude, my disciple and all those gd stuffs. this is serious stress. twenty. not a big issue but im thinkig.
im addicted to mirc. i love chatting at the main coz private msg kinda sux and makes chatting boring. it would be like helo intro kinda thing. but chatting at the main channel... its different. ive got to noe a few chatters there and i find it cool. juz dun take mirc seriously and u'll hev fun bebeh.
its like 9.38 already. 2ml i'll hev my last online registration. my last sem in poly hopefully. i cant wait to end this. to graduate tt is. sch starts 2nd may and i've had 2 months of hols and im enjoying every bit of it.
signing off...
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8:28 AM
